„Currently there is too much pain. I can’t handle it. I saw myself how I could look after all the HRT and surgeries … and I want to be there. Right now. I saw this feminized face, without all the manly flaws. The soft chin, the small nose, the opened up eyes,“ I said. „And then … I look in the mirror. And it hurts so much.“

I show her a picture of what I saw.

„I want to be there.“

„But you already are. The mirror just needs to catch up. Reality is slow. But if you look closely you will see your eyes are right there now,“ she said.

Tears of joy and sorrow are surging my face.