Eighteen years ago today I was in a hospital suite. In labor. It wouldn't be brief. I'd continue laboring for the next seven hours. Which was actually refreshing. Because I'd already been in labor for three days straight. I was suffering from preeclampsia. The baby was suffering from an intrauterine growth issue. And to top … Continue reading Party at ground zero
I don't ordinarily feel the need to make the whole disclaimer that my thoughts are my own and do not necessarily reflect those of my employers but since this opinion hits close to home and happens to step right inside the circle of what I do for work day in and day out I felt … Continue reading Well meaning but totally misguided
I was horrible at being friends with women in my youth. Horrible at it. In my youth I was one of those girls who were only friends with guys. I was one of the boys. Just one of the boys who liked to wear goth makeup and short skirts. Women were too much. Too mean, … Continue reading 43 and reflecting on not knowing what I didn’t know…
Have you ever tried to work an unfamiliar alarm clock that sounds like a fire alarm, with no warning that it would go off, in the dark, without your glasses, at 6am (but 5am in your own timezone) having been awoken by said alarm in the middle of an anxiety dream? Welcome to my morning. … Continue reading the alarm…
I was going to start this off by saying that toilet paper is the one thing that we can all relate on, but after just a few moments of thought I realized a few things: Toilet paper is a huge luxury and privilege - one that many of us take for granted.The over/under position of … Continue reading Consumer Whore Cami Buys Toilet Paper…
Yesterday morning I woke up in St. Louis. I rolled out of bed hours before I needed to and showered, checked to make sure everything was packed for my trip home, worked a little, and then met some folx in the hotel lobby for pre-breakfast tea and coffee. I was feeling a lot tired. A … Continue reading panic on the streets of St. Louis…
The other morning, just before waking, I had a strange, potent, boring, unusual dream. I'll skip all the parts about finding out that my grandparents had separately faked their own deaths and opened a bookstore with a courtyard and duplex out back. And the part where my grandfather asked me to come and clean out … Continue reading I have no idea what’s going on…
This morning after going out to breakfast my daughter and I went to the pet supply store. It's mostly a dog supply store but in one corner of the store, one very large corner, it's filled with a huge variety of cat related items from the practical to the extravagant. We took our time looking … Continue reading Did you get a new cat?
It was about 16 months ago that I scheduled an appointment with my doctor, a woman who had developed great rapport and had earned my trust and respect, in order to mumble and skirt the issue and then cry when telling her I no longer felt able to cope with my anxiety on my own. … Continue reading confessions of a former sauce packet hoarder…
This is not my story to tell, but sometimes you tell a story anyway. A story that impacts you deeply. One that has informed and influenced your entire life. One that you've known since the day you were born, but can't possibly know all of. Despite what the title says, the story starts more than … Continue reading 50 years…
